I don't know. I don't know what to do, how to feel, how to behave, how to handle things. My mind is literally in limbo and everything is in gridlock. I'm so angry, sad, confused, scared, and just so frustrated. Things are weighing down so hard. It's really like everything in me is stuck. I'm really at that stage where I can just scream so loud. Internally I'm already doing that. Sometimes, there's really no one to hear. I mean who do you talk to if it involves the people you would talk to over such stuff? I don't know. Everything inside is so cooked up, so gggaaaahhhh!!!! I don't even know what to say! I'm so lonely. I'm so so lonely. My chest is hurting physically due to this internal storm. Yes, it's that bad. I don't know. Just so down and crushed.
